The Way I Feel Today

November 29, 2014

I can’t remember the last time I was truly sad. Sad in the way where your gut wrenches and your thoughts are consumed.

It’s a strange feeling. I’d like to think that my friends and family think of me as upbeat, ‘happy go-lucky’ if you’ll excuse that colloquialism. But today I feel sad.

This isn’t a seasonal thing, nor a persistent and/or recurring feeling, this is, as I alluded to earlier, something I haven’t felt in a long time.

So I find myself back here, writing, thinking and sharing.

I’ve made mistakes and bad decisions. Some of those were fuelled by selfishness, others by carelessness, and others were propelled by a misguided sense of adventure, which has caused sadness for others and sadness for me.

For those that know me – I mean truly know me, I don’t easily disguise my feelings. When it comes to reading my emotions, I’m the Saturday morning comics. Simple.

The way I feel today is strange. Sad. Honest. Heart-wrenching sadness.

Perhaps it’s true that sadness can’t be experienced without knowing happiness. Happiness – more on that in a later post.

I’ll be alright.

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